Tuesday, February 19, 2013

Always Trust God

Over the past year I struggled with fully trusting God. It's not that I didn't trust Him, it's just that I was questioning His plans for my life. I was in a hard place. I didn't know what to think about what was happening and what He was asking me to do. I couldn't see the end result, the future. I only saw the now.

Let me be completely honest here. About a year ago I had a dream from God. He was telling me to take a leap of faith and have another baby. I was left with the question "why?" I didn't understand. In my fleshly mind I was completely done having kids.  Not that I won't love that baby with all my heart, it's just that I wasn't trusting.

So after much prayer and not knowing how to feel I asked God to make it so obvious  to me. God was asking and I had to say YES. Weeks went by and I still struggled with this leap of faith. Then one night I had another dream. I felt like I was going crazy. It's all I could think about. I started to get frustrated. Saying YES was so life changing that I just wasn't ready for it. I was in a whirlwind. Was I going to obey God's requests or say no? How can you say NO to Him?

A few more weeks went by and God gave me a third dream. God told me Party of Five, and a few days later I found out I was pregnant, making our family a party of five! I knew I had to trust, but why was it so hard for me? I never struggled with this before. After much prayer I finally realized why I was struggling. It was because of the unknown!

Fast forward 9 months.

As soon as I looked at her for the first time I praised God and asked for forgiveness for not trusting. I had let the enemy get into my head with "what ifs."She was happy and healthy. God created her perfectly in His image.

Why did I even question his plan in the first place? He always know what we need and want more than we know it.

Now that she is here, I couldn't imagine my life without her. I love her with all my heart.

With spilling my heart to you, I hope that you know that you should ALWAYS trust Jesus and God's plan even when it is hard. Learn from me that everything is going to be OK! Nothing catches God by surprise. He already knows what tomorrow is going to bring because tomorrow is already the past for Him.

Trust in Him even if you don't understand why.

Just trust. ALWAYS trust and never question and you won't be dissapointed.


  1. My goodness isn't this so true. Both my husband and I were shocked when we got pregnant with our baby girl Julia. We wanted more children but we thought our plan would be through adoption and NOT 6 months after the birth of our twin boys. We had 3 boys under the age of 2 at that point and i was OVER being pregnant. Now we can't imagine our life without our sweet girl BUT at the time we were thinking what the heck?!

  2. What a beautiful little girl! I have been trying to follow God's leading more lately, which is not always easy. I will admit, it would've been very difficult for me to trust God if he asked me to have another child. :) Children are an amazing gift!

  3. This is going to sound stupid, but I have to say I LOVE THAT NAME!! And if I tell you why you can't get mad...my Cabbage Patch Kid was named Arabella Felicia and I LOVED HER. :D