Monday, November 19, 2012

A broken past

I walk a line & my line is not straight. It never has been. Then to be real honest with you I don't think I've ever fully tried to walk straight.

I always want to do what is best & right in God's eyes, but like I've said before.. The second I mess up, I run. So then I stray & it takes me awhile to find myself back on that path.

My path has been pretty straight for awhile & that's a commitment you need to make with yourself & God. If you are not fully committed you will stray. But God is always fully committed to you, know that dear friend.

During the week my life gets busy. It's busy by working Monday - Thursday 10 hours a day. Then coming home to a family that needs me. And then before you know it the day next day starts right back up again. But let me tell you something, I am blessed to have a job that allows me to work 4 days a week & that gives me Friday off.

My Fridays have become my favorite days of the week. Both, Chris & I have the day off with the kids, that makes it nice. But then I start off my morning at, I strive for 530 but it's mostly 6. I wake up knowing the first thing I am going to do is come straight to the Lord. A peaceful house. Stillness.

This was my Friday morning. Did I mention I love fall/winter time? Fire place I welcome you with open arms.

At church we just finished up the study, When Godly People Do Ungodly Things by Beth Moore. Andrea & I loved it so much, we went out bought the book & are digging deeper.  So deep that both of us went to Starbucks Friday morning basically in tears from the message we had just received.

Oh and that is another reason why I love Fridays, every morning at 815 we meet at Starbucks for 2 hours to discuss this study.

This is the chapter that literally captivated me.

Beth Moore starts out the chapter with such a powerful verse.

Psalm 130:3-4 -- If you, O Lord, kept a record of sins, O Lord, who could stand? But with you there is forgiveness; therefore you are feared.

We NEED to realize God does not record our wrong doings. I think that is SO hard to comprehend. Yes, he KNOWS all the things we ever did wrong BUT he does not take that keep track & use it against us. He is SO good.

Simply put Beth Moore states - "We've got to start believing God about us."

FRIENDS, quit believing the devil. Resist him. START believing God. Embrace Him!!! Submit to Him.

He can heal our pasts. Did you hear me? I said He can HEAL our pasts. Not only does he forgive us our sins after repentance BUT he heals us. He can make us whole again, if we let Him!

Again, Beth Moore nailed it by stating - "Yes, we can do something about our pasts. We can take them to Jesus! We can't forget them or ignore them. We need Him to take full authority over them so they are no longer a playground for the enemy."

This is so big. So many things in our past hold us captive. The devil tears & tears at it, eats you away. You may have brought it before the Lord & asked for forgiveness but fully repent from it!! TELL GOD YOU WANT TO BE HEALED FROM YOUR PAST.

I will end on this verse.

Psalm 18:18 -- They confronted me in the day of my disaster, but the Lord was my support.

Girls - know that God is for you. God is your biggest supporter. He is there to help us through our past.

Oh & He loves you :)


  1. I love Beth Moore so much. Sounds like it's a timely message and meant a lot to you!

  2. This was a life changing chapter in our study. I am so thankful we decided to dig deeper. We both were deeply affected by it...kinda like an ahh ha moment for both of us...duh why didn't we think of that.

  3. I love this post so very much! I LOVE the heart of your blog and can IDENTIFY! Boy is it hard to look at my past sometimes and sometimes I think the quote "churchy" girls don't quite relate. I HATE that term BUT i don't know how else to describe it. GOD loves us SOOO much and how is it that finally at 32 i'm releasing myself of that past (when He did so long ago)! Did i tell you I love this blog? I do i do!! :):)